Dec 15, 2009

Life





My friends and my friend's great cameras. I took them long time ago.

I can't sleep tonight so I post on this blog.
not special.
nothing special.

Enjoy my worries, I may never have them again

I believe that my kiev 60 and the winter sea are a good match.

Dec 12, 2009

intentional forgetting

CHAIKA


"Blessed are the forgetful, for they get the better even of their blunders." - Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche
「忘却はよりよき前進を生む」(ニーチェ)

"How happy is the blameless vestals lot the world forgetting by the world forgot eternal sunshine of the spotless mind each prayer accepted and each wish resigned" - Alexander Pope
「幸せは無垢な心に宿る。忘却は許すこと。太陽の光に導かれ、陰りなき祈りは運命を動かす」(アレグザンダー・ポープ)

ここで注目したいのは、"忘却"は”許す事"という訳し方。
Alexander Popeの"the world forgetting by the world forgot" ちょっとこの訳が難しすぎる。
「忘却は許す事」この言葉自体は個人的に、とても気に入っている。けれどこの引用文に対しての日本語訳としては、ちょっと強引な感じもする。
というのも、この詩はAlexander Popeの文学作品 Eloisa to Abelard「エロイーザからアベラールへ」からの引用なのだけど
前後のストーリーから考えると、やっぱり違うのではないかと思ったりします。
ぴったりな日本語訳が思いつかないのだけど、どこかにいい日本語訳があったら知りたい。

Nov 29, 2009

my cup of tea



I take pictures with my kiev 60 recently in my private time not work as I got this camera newly so I gotta test how it works.
Then I realized that I prefer 35 mm film not 120 mm it's just because square format makes me confused. I mean square format is not enough to get my imaginations in my head. my imaginations for pictures are in my head like a film/movie, its existing already in a movie screen so it's difficult to change to square way. it's inflexible, isn't it?

Ahh.. The winter season is almost there. I will definitely freezing out as soon as it comes around.
It's okay, I'm fine, let's enjoy this. Also, the photographs in the winter season brings me really artistic.
Do we have a chance of snow in Tokyo in this year? ?

And, my cocoa in a cup has gone cold now. I think I should go to bed.
I have same dream recently again and again and again.. I hope I can dream it ones again tonight because somebody said its a good sign.

I wish I could

Sep 30, 2009

exhibition at T.Y. Harbor



I have my exhibition at the restaurant T.Y. Harbor
Oct 5th to Nov 23rd

なんだか最近フラストレーションが溜まってしまって大変だった。
仕事が忙しいのはいい事なんだけど、「明日までお願いね」的な急な締め切りが続くと、頭んなかでなんとなくたてていた予定が宙ぶらりんになって、それがどんどん頭の片隅に溜まっていって腫瘍化してしまうという悪循環。
友達とも全然会ってない。
どこかで息抜きしなくちゃいけないのはわかっているんだけど、基本的にのろまなので、なかなかうまくタイミングがつかめないでいたのでした。

そんな中でも最近なんとか自分のペースを作れるようになってきて、仕事がある事に感謝出来るくらいの余裕は出てきたのかな。

最近ものすごくイライラして写真も撮れないと思っていたけど、今感じているイライラを利用して、この真っ黒い気持ちをカメラを使って外にだしちゃえばいいんだ!って思ったら気が楽になって(そんなにうまくはいかんのだろうけど)でもカメラにもまたさわれるようになってきた。
最近ロシアから遥々ウチに届いたkiev60は、相変わらず裏蓋が癒着して開かないのだけど。

写真展の準備もそろそろ落ち着くし、また走る事にする。

Sep 15, 2009

I can find a way out.



take some pictures by my kieve 60
read the great gatsby
listen to sigur ros
make veggy soup
soft blanket and pillow
smell of grass
walk slow under the big bright moon

These are what I want to do now.

Jul 18, 2009

tiny little things became a big.



I didn't feel well today. I felt kind of sick - maybe so much tabasco that I had last night effected me worse I think.

Then I had a bad dream. My mother tried to kill me in my dream!!! (She is very very nice in the real life.)
She was in demented state in my dream. she totally forgot all of me.
First, she had a detestation of my face and she covered my face with blanket and next she was disgusted how I exist and tried to kill me.
horrible!

I'm not sure why I had that kind of dream. Every small things just matched for a split second.

I think I'm calling to my mother to say "hi" now.

May 29, 2009

It's rainy day that I can feel gravity




For me, the rain is the gravity that I can see by direct visualization.

Equality is existing here.

Oh btw, I went to the standing bar for the first time. Fantastic.

Feb 15, 2009

no..



My belarussian camera, Чайка3(Chaika3) is broken.
I tried to fix it at camera shop in Ikebukuro, but it didn't work because it was too old and was made in Belarus.
maybe I'll bring it other shop.

G'nite.....!!

Jan 22, 2009

gosh..



I am very lazy at this blog :'(

I'm Japanese. Sometimes, Using English is very hard for me.
Why we all didn't have same language??!! not useful! Don't you think?
However, I know it's really great, mysterious and sexy thing that we can explain our feeling with many languages.

I visited my grandmother's house in this new year's holidays.
There were nothing to do and I enjoyed that. I spent great happy time with my family.
After came back home, I'm a bit busy now, but happy with it.

What's happiness to you?
I love winter sea.
Hmm... I don't know what to say so, g'nite.